Recharge

Turns out all I needed was a three day weekend to finish my essay and become addicted to Grey's anatomy.
Things are looking good, it's amazing what you can do when your brain has a full 12 hours of sleep :) Still lots of work to do on the essay but the first draft is done and that about 75% of the effort I think. Plus a few hours on manual handling tomorrow and so tomorrow afternoon I have time to work on my portfolio and evidence for placement outcomes. The to do list is looking skinny and so I've resorted to looking for things to do. Obviously my brain just needed to recharge :)
Placement isn't going badly either, I am getting to the point where I'm good at my outcomes now, working with different midwives often throws me off balance a bit because you get used to doing it one way and then you spend the day with someone else and suddenly every things changed. The underpinning knowledge and physiology is the same but how it's translated to women depends on time and the midwife, Acting is definitely what it feels like as a student, your always on your toes ready for a question...I often turn red and pretend I'm a retard that knows nothing. Which in some instances now is not the case. So, some of it's going in.
It's easy to look at this massive journey I have in front of me and feel disheartened about how much there is still to learn. However, one new thing learnt each day however small is something and I cling onto such as how the spell the bloody word "eczema" it took me weeks to learn to spell that one word correctly or to know the correct work for excessive vomiting during pregnancy (Hyperemesis Gravidarum). I have to work to remember, so often when I get home at the end of the day my brain is almost full but I try so that the next time I'm quizzed about it I know. sometimes I remember sometimes I don't it's a bit hit and miss at the minute but I'm getting there. I just have to keep reminding myself that all the little things I remember are just pieces to the puzzle. I have a few but nowhere near enough to put it together yet. I'm still at the sorting stage of a 3 year jigsaw puzzle.