Really?

So I was sat in lectures today and it hit me...
I actually knew what the women stood at the front was talking about and from that moment on I was in a state of shock because for the past 5 months I've just sat at the back of the class normally praying that no one asked me any questions. Then BAM like a light bulb had flicked on and suddenly my brain had an idea about what was going on. I can feel me learning now and it's weird because i spent all of the first term in a blind panic and now it's just amazing when someone asks me something or the lecturer asks us to do some research I can go away, do it and sort of get it right.

AMAZING

Like I said whenever I start to get a bit comfortable something is just around the corner to knock me right back down again and with the ugly essay just around the corner I can only think the worst...
Please, Please, Please let me get a pass because if I don't the whole process of build myself  up again will have to start again...