Goodbye Year 1
Only a month until I officially become a second year, then the trouble all begins again! To be honest I think it's a miracle I've made it this far without having a mental breakdown.
The exam wasn't to bad yesterday the A&P questions went my way but the maths section I'm sure I've failed but that's something that I can work on a bit more and work harder at. Now it's SO hot in Norwich I don't know what to do with myself I think Norwich weather had Bipolar because it rained for 2 weeks straight now it's about 27 degrees. Still it's a nice way to end the year my room currently looks like it's been hit by a bomb ready for moving back :( I'm sad because I liked this place although it was hugely overpriced and the kitchen was always messy it was still a really nice place to spend my first year away from home !
For the next 6 weeks I refuse to talk or even think about midwifery, which is much easier said than done. Plus when I'm not doing something midwifery related I'm bored out of my skull because there's nothing to do. I definitely couldn't be unemployed with nothing to do all day I think I'd kill myself!
I also managed to work out the reason behind the amount I've been able to save... Midwifery = No life and no time meaning that I never had the time to go shopping. Now however I have the whole day hahahah and I got my bursary on Friday so I'm feeling a little spending spree coming on! :)
Hello Norwich shopping !!!
Wednesday, 25 July 2012
Friday, 20 July 2012
Exam dreams
Woke up this morning in a daze, I'm not sure whether it was the alcohol or
just the sheer concentration that has been put into the last few weeks but I
had a very odd dream last night that caused me to wake up in a bit of a sweat.
Picture this if you will...
Sitting in an exam room having prepared for 3 weeks solid on midwifery, I open the booklet and read the first and only question worth 50 marks.
The question " A child is in need of it's 5 year vaccination, which vaccinations are recommended and how would they be given?"
Honestly I've never felt so sick in all my life!
Waking up in a hot sweat I was very pleased to see the four walls on my room...
This my friends is what I call a small breakdown. I really would just like the exam tomorrow and to go home and cuddle my ginger puss.
To add to my stress I had arranged my year 1 final interview today. I arrived on time and waited to get started as I wondered over another student barged in having been 30 minutes late for her appointment. I explained to her the rules of you snooze you lose but in a much more polite way and was sure it was her tough luck that she would have to come back in her own time. However, when the lecturer made her way out she ordered me away because apparently the other student was first. Now that may be so. BUT. She had missed her whole appointment and it was now my slot. Apparently though this was my fault and I would need to come back again on Monday when I should really be revising so I can sit for an hour and listen to her drivel.
Wonderful! As you can imagine that was the cherry on top of the cake and I just walked off feeling as if I'd done something wrong.
Picture this if you will...
Sitting in an exam room having prepared for 3 weeks solid on midwifery, I open the booklet and read the first and only question worth 50 marks.
The question " A child is in need of it's 5 year vaccination, which vaccinations are recommended and how would they be given?"
Honestly I've never felt so sick in all my life!
Waking up in a hot sweat I was very pleased to see the four walls on my room...
This my friends is what I call a small breakdown. I really would just like the exam tomorrow and to go home and cuddle my ginger puss.
To add to my stress I had arranged my year 1 final interview today. I arrived on time and waited to get started as I wondered over another student barged in having been 30 minutes late for her appointment. I explained to her the rules of you snooze you lose but in a much more polite way and was sure it was her tough luck that she would have to come back in her own time. However, when the lecturer made her way out she ordered me away because apparently the other student was first. Now that may be so. BUT. She had missed her whole appointment and it was now my slot. Apparently though this was my fault and I would need to come back again on Monday when I should really be revising so I can sit for an hour and listen to her drivel.
Wonderful! As you can imagine that was the cherry on top of the cake and I just walked off feeling as if I'd done something wrong.
Monday, 9 July 2012
I'm pretty good at revision
Turns out I'm pretty good at self motivating. I think the fact that the exams are not far off are probably the reason why I'm doing so well. I quite like this DIY attitude, whether I'm actually learning the right things though is anybodies guess. Otherwise, everything else is well and I'm a bit boring really =_=
Placement finished and I don't think i've ever been quite so happy so at least thats a possitive :)
Placement finished and I don't think i've ever been quite so happy so at least thats a possitive :)
Wednesday, 27 June 2012
I Just want to Walk Away
Confused, tired and at the end of my tether.
If I could walk away now I damn well would, placement really shows me how far I have to go. At the end of my first year I should feel happy at my success but I don't because in hind sight it feels like nothing, exams are right around the corner and I’m dubious of my own ability to pass them. Placement = hard work, long hours and lots of questioning. I loved the Midwife Led Unit then they moved me to the high-risk delivery suite and I was lost, it's so medical and so not what birth should be like. It definitely made me think that community midwifery is better suited to me, although I didn't know it at the time it was honestly amazing. I am really dreading next year when all the placements I have are on delivery suite :( I can barely manage a month let alone over half my time there next year. It's not hell but it’s close to it!
I have had a few days off which I was supposed to use to do work but instead I decided it was much more fun to rearrange my room, that’s how desperate I was. I put the PRO in Procrastination! One more week left then I get 2 weeks revision time, which means my room, will be immaculate due to the fact that I would much rather avoid work.
Sunday, 10 June 2012
Am I nearly there yet?
Tired is a word that doesn't even come close to how I'm feeling right now. Which
is the reason for me ignoring everything other than work, my washing pile is
now sky high and my diet has now become anything that I can grab and eat in 5
seconds flat. The short shifts on delivery make it seem like I never leave, it
is so different from the MLBU it's ridiculous. I've gone from lovely water
births and natural births to seeing every woman with an epidural, CTG and all
laying on the bed. Everything I learnt in the first 2 weeks is being scrubbed
off for a more high-risk approach. It is sad because women don't understand the
possibilities that they have regarding childbirth and how a few metre from
delivery to the MLBU can be the difference between natural and medicalised.
I think many other people in the cohort are suffering and struggling to get their heads round the placement it's supposed to be a low risk normal placement but it's so difficult to get nice normal births. You can't help thinking that maybe doctors and midwives interfere when there is no need to.
While I am at my rant, I’ve also started to get a bee in my bonnet about pain relief during labour. When it is low risk women cope by mobilising, using water, Paracetamol and a bit of Entonox but when you look at the delivery suite pain relief it's Entonox, Pethidine or epidural! It seriously makes me want to scream! I don't know if it's my mentor who is uncomfortable with women making noise but she is very quick to get in the room and give that woman stronger pain relief even though she may be coping very well.
Rant over :)
I think many other people in the cohort are suffering and struggling to get their heads round the placement it's supposed to be a low risk normal placement but it's so difficult to get nice normal births. You can't help thinking that maybe doctors and midwives interfere when there is no need to.
While I am at my rant, I’ve also started to get a bee in my bonnet about pain relief during labour. When it is low risk women cope by mobilising, using water, Paracetamol and a bit of Entonox but when you look at the delivery suite pain relief it's Entonox, Pethidine or epidural! It seriously makes me want to scream! I don't know if it's my mentor who is uncomfortable with women making noise but she is very quick to get in the room and give that woman stronger pain relief even though she may be coping very well.
Rant over :)
Saturday, 26 May 2012
Nothing to worry about
After my first day I was left feeling both completely knackered and euphoric, who knew a job was able to make anyone feel like that. I'm so lucky! However, getting up at 5:30 am on a weekend isn't my idea of a good one but if it means I get to do what I do it's all worth it. The team are so lovely and I was Lucky enough to have my first shift with one of the girls from my cohort so when it was quiet we would become little explorers in a HUGE alien world that is the hospital.
Anyway I caught one and that was fairly scary I knew that I was going to be hands on when my mentor asked me what size gloves I wear... That was enough to put me in a mad panic, although I am developing a skill called professionalism, which basically means panic but on the inside and smile on the outside :) that takes a bit of work to perfect!
Anyway I caught one and that was fairly scary I knew that I was going to be hands on when my mentor asked me what size gloves I wear... That was enough to put me in a mad panic, although I am developing a skill called professionalism, which basically means panic but on the inside and smile on the outside :) that takes a bit of work to perfect!
Saturday, 19 May 2012
I must not panic
So University life is near enough over for the time being, which means entering into the labour ward...
The fact that everyone says it will all be fine doesn't really make it any easier, plus having to
get out of bed a 5:30am in the morning doesn't help.
At the minute I would call my preparation for labour ward as panic revision, we've been given a session on newborn resuscitation and a bit around the stages of labour but the rest is still a bit of a blur to me! There's lots of ends that need tying and things that need doing, Thankfully I only have 3 12.5 hour shifts next week which means 4 days off :)
On the brighter side, my plant has decided to go crazy and give me some very pretty purple flowers which is nice, however my little tree isn't looking so fantastic. Not sure what I've done to upset it but it's definitely not happy.
The other day I was thinking that I'm going to have to start taking some things home with me because there is so much crap building up here that I won't be able to get it home all in one go. This is a job I am not looking forward to because it will mean that I will have to have a clear out, which is my least favourite thing to do.
Friday, 11 May 2012
One week left
One week remaining until labour ward is tackled, I have my first shifts on the low risk ward so I will be able to get some nice low risk births in. I only have to do three shifts a week for the first 2 weeks because they are 12.5 hour shifts so although having 4 days off is lovely I still have to do three night shifts on the trot, I can only imagine my marvellous mood at the end of that.
The revision process is well underway, the only problem is that as soon as I think I know something they throw something new at me and I’m back to square one. After my little strop about my essay I soon recovered and was back the grind of reading =_=
This week was lovely we had a 3-day week, which is more than enough and yesterday I was left to my own devices to revise what I fancied. Today we were put through our paces with circulation of the fetus and how it changes. Safe to say my brain almost gave up, never the less I’m really enjoying module 3. It involves a hell of a lot more input that the past two modules but I can understand why. The fear of labour ward is enough to make anyone study their asses off, so as not to look like a complete idiot when your there.
Ps. Accidentally dyed my hair
pink, that should make everyone laugh at home xx
Friday, 4 May 2012
Pass
Found out today that I passed my last assignment, which is good.
However I had to fight back a bit of disappointment as it is a LOT lower than my first graded essay and although I found it harder and spent a lot more time on it, It is still not all that higher grade, a pass though and that's all I wanted.
Moving on another week crossed off the calender and in 15 days delivery suite is calling- Something else to stress about. The prep that I've done for the placement though is good and having my outcomes to look at means that I kind of know what I'm aiming for.
Revision for exams has commenced and everything is just bobbing along nicely so I refuse to get worked up about the essay score, It's a pass, it's what I needed and I got it. So don't have any reason to complain.
Ps. Father could you please send me a picture of our new pond/swamp, sounds like an interesting project to be starting in the middle of our wettest drought in history.
A picture of ginger puss would be appreciated to :)
However I had to fight back a bit of disappointment as it is a LOT lower than my first graded essay and although I found it harder and spent a lot more time on it, It is still not all that higher grade, a pass though and that's all I wanted.
Moving on another week crossed off the calender and in 15 days delivery suite is calling- Something else to stress about. The prep that I've done for the placement though is good and having my outcomes to look at means that I kind of know what I'm aiming for.
Revision for exams has commenced and everything is just bobbing along nicely so I refuse to get worked up about the essay score, It's a pass, it's what I needed and I got it. So don't have any reason to complain.
Ps. Father could you please send me a picture of our new pond/swamp, sounds like an interesting project to be starting in the middle of our wettest drought in history.
A picture of ginger puss would be appreciated to :)
Friday, 27 April 2012
Has it only been a week?
Module 3 hit me like a brick wall. The lessons are long and crammed with things I have to remember for the exams. My brain is currently in a state of shock due to the amount of things that I've been trying to cram into it. The revision guide has been started and already and I feel like I'm writing a book.
Drug calculations are the next hurdle I have to overcome, to be honest they're not difficult, the problem is as soon as I hear maths the panic button in my brain gets pushed and I'm screwed.
EBL presentation is coming along nicely and I plan to do a bit more research on the pelvic floor muscle as it's still a bit confusing for me...
Lots to do and not much time to do it in =_=
Drug calculations are the next hurdle I have to overcome, to be honest they're not difficult, the problem is as soon as I hear maths the panic button in my brain gets pushed and I'm screwed.
EBL presentation is coming along nicely and I plan to do a bit more research on the pelvic floor muscle as it's still a bit confusing for me...
Lots to do and not much time to do it in =_=
Monday, 23 April 2012
Hello Module 3!
Time in my first year at university is rushing by now, it only seems like yesterday when I moved in and began this long journey. It's hard to believe that this is my last term and module as a first year and that next year my role and responsibility changes and expands. So module 3 started today and it's safe to say the anxiety of something very new and different scared the whole cohort into silence.
Mod 3 focuses on labour and delivery and there sure is a hell of a lot to learn about it. The fact that there is no essay in this term is brilliant, however there is still the small matter of the exams. Which are just around the corner... Revision has already started and nerves have already made their way nto my subconscious.
So apart from the fact that every time I think about this module and all the work it entails my stomach tries to leap out of my throat, I'm so excited. This is the module I've been waiting for and the teacher we have for this module is amazing so already I'm hyped for it.
Another plus on the scale is that I passed my placement so that's another tick on the Done list. Now it's the dreaded wait until the 5th of May for the essay feedback.
plus, last night I swam 2000m beating everyone in my lane (not that I'm competitive or anything) so it's safe to say I'm very proud of myself :) :)
Mod 3 focuses on labour and delivery and there sure is a hell of a lot to learn about it. The fact that there is no essay in this term is brilliant, however there is still the small matter of the exams. Which are just around the corner... Revision has already started and nerves have already made their way nto my subconscious.
So apart from the fact that every time I think about this module and all the work it entails my stomach tries to leap out of my throat, I'm so excited. This is the module I've been waiting for and the teacher we have for this module is amazing so already I'm hyped for it.
Another plus on the scale is that I passed my placement so that's another tick on the Done list. Now it's the dreaded wait until the 5th of May for the essay feedback.
plus, last night I swam 2000m beating everyone in my lane (not that I'm competitive or anything) so it's safe to say I'm very proud of myself :) :)
Friday, 20 April 2012
Trying something new
Kirstie & I managed to throw together some very nice cup cakes and a coffee cake, safe to say we are very pleased with ourselves :) Cupcakes are rather yummy!
The coffee cake isn't too bad either :)
Tuesday, 17 April 2012
Back to reality
My last term as a first year has begun and I have the feeling this is going to be the hardest one yet (which makes sense). With Exams, Labour ward and massive amounts of EBL I get the feeling drowning is what it's going to feel like for most of this term. I finished last term on a fairly neutral feeling . However, the realisation and shock that I've nearly completed a year is all a little scary. It's all about to get very hard very quickly, I found out my mentors name for my Labour ward placement and heard positive things about her, but that doesn't make me feel any less nervous. I can feel myself creeping up the roller coaster again and I'm waiting for it to suddenly drop me into the big dark hole of stress and worry. Although, It can't be impossible others have done it before me and they've survived! I can to, I just need to get into the right head space first :)
After decorating my room during the holidays moving back into my uni room was less fun. I was just getting used to the space.
Swimming is going well and I managed to swim 1,125m Last night, and I'm hoping to do better tonight although I've been cycling a lot today so I expect I'm going to be useless. anyway EBL presentation work needs doing and it won't do itself so I'm off to fight with it for a bit more. Fun =_=
ps. I hope My GG isn't missing me too much :) x
After decorating my room during the holidays moving back into my uni room was less fun. I was just getting used to the space.
Swimming is going well and I managed to swim 1,125m Last night, and I'm hoping to do better tonight although I've been cycling a lot today so I expect I'm going to be useless. anyway EBL presentation work needs doing and it won't do itself so I'm off to fight with it for a bit more. Fun =_=
ps. I hope My GG isn't missing me too much :) x
Tuesday, 27 March 2012
Ha!
Goodbye cruel and life consuming essay!
Handed in today and I don't want to ever see it again. As long as it gets over 41% I'll be happy, I must just say a massive thank you to Alice because she is amazing and sorted out my reference list, Without her I would have probably given up and just given it in in it's terrible state. Time now to enjoy the sun and plan for the next presentation.
Saying that today I had an amazing lecture on mental health and all the care pathways and everything. Which was not only good but also very helpful due to the fact that it is directly related to my part of our EBL presentation. Hooray!
Then this afternoon we had 4 hours of the fathers needs and pretty much service innovation. Which I must say, nearly bored me to tears as the beautiful sun was beaming away outside I was sat in a small dark room talking about how men need to be loved too. Don't get me wrong they do, but talking about it for 4 hours drove all the compassion for men out of me.
Another plus, 2lb gone that's 8lb now so I'm pleased, I will not be a fatty this summer! Although last night while swimming I was beaten by an old, fat lady. I was most perturbed, I'm supposed to be getting better at this swimming malarkey but to be beaten by and old lady is just shameful. I will be back there tonight ready to take her on again! She was amazing though to be honest. She just kept going, I tried this technique and nearly drowned in my enthusiasm and competitiveness. I'm getting back into the swing of swimming again now and I'm starting to enjoy it, maybe it will have to be my pole alternative until I can get back to it.
Anyway The Sims is Calling me :) I can play it now I have no essay to fight with :)!
Handed in today and I don't want to ever see it again. As long as it gets over 41% I'll be happy, I must just say a massive thank you to Alice because she is amazing and sorted out my reference list, Without her I would have probably given up and just given it in in it's terrible state. Time now to enjoy the sun and plan for the next presentation.
Saying that today I had an amazing lecture on mental health and all the care pathways and everything. Which was not only good but also very helpful due to the fact that it is directly related to my part of our EBL presentation. Hooray!
Then this afternoon we had 4 hours of the fathers needs and pretty much service innovation. Which I must say, nearly bored me to tears as the beautiful sun was beaming away outside I was sat in a small dark room talking about how men need to be loved too. Don't get me wrong they do, but talking about it for 4 hours drove all the compassion for men out of me.
Another plus, 2lb gone that's 8lb now so I'm pleased, I will not be a fatty this summer! Although last night while swimming I was beaten by an old, fat lady. I was most perturbed, I'm supposed to be getting better at this swimming malarkey but to be beaten by and old lady is just shameful. I will be back there tonight ready to take her on again! She was amazing though to be honest. She just kept going, I tried this technique and nearly drowned in my enthusiasm and competitiveness. I'm getting back into the swing of swimming again now and I'm starting to enjoy it, maybe it will have to be my pole alternative until I can get back to it.
Anyway The Sims is Calling me :) I can play it now I have no essay to fight with :)!
Sunday, 25 March 2012
Sunshine
Instead of enjoying it I'm sat in my room dealing with essay troubles- After Thursday there will be no more essay problems because I'm giving the damn thing in! :)
Lost another 2lb meaning I've lost 6lb in 3 weeks, which isn't to bad really. I also brought my first maxi dress to enjoy this summer :)
Generally the sun puts me in a really good mood. SO even though this essay is still hanging around I'm still able to see the brighter side of life :)
I went to see the new hunger games the other night, Turns out all the hype about it was true. Pretty good film and apparently there is still more to come, Definetly recommend you go and see it.
Lost another 2lb meaning I've lost 6lb in 3 weeks, which isn't to bad really. I also brought my first maxi dress to enjoy this summer :)
Generally the sun puts me in a really good mood. SO even though this essay is still hanging around I'm still able to see the brighter side of life :)
I went to see the new hunger games the other night, Turns out all the hype about it was true. Pretty good film and apparently there is still more to come, Definetly recommend you go and see it.
Tuesday, 20 March 2012
Just act like you know it...You'll be fine
Turns out you really will!
So after returning home from my home (if that makes sense). I then had to worry about the small matter of a presentation that I had managed to do nothing on all weekend. This was due to the pushy nature of this essay which demands most of my time and patients. So I basically managed to ignore the fact that I had a presentation until the very last minute.
One would think the was a fabulous idea, until presentation day comes and you find out that your up a certain creek without a paddle.
However, this is where my developing acting skill or blagging skills as I like to call them come in to their own. From my small knowledge base of labour and early signs I was able to keep everybody entertain and amused without making myself out to look like an incompetent idiot. I have to say I felt like I'd cheated a bit as others had done lots of pre-reading. Where as lazy old me just turned up, tried to remember the distant memory of labour from placement and just go with the flow...
No one was any the wiser!
That my friends is what I would call that a success!
So after returning home from my home (if that makes sense). I then had to worry about the small matter of a presentation that I had managed to do nothing on all weekend. This was due to the pushy nature of this essay which demands most of my time and patients. So I basically managed to ignore the fact that I had a presentation until the very last minute.
One would think the was a fabulous idea, until presentation day comes and you find out that your up a certain creek without a paddle.
However, this is where my developing acting skill or blagging skills as I like to call them come in to their own. From my small knowledge base of labour and early signs I was able to keep everybody entertain and amused without making myself out to look like an incompetent idiot. I have to say I felt like I'd cheated a bit as others had done lots of pre-reading. Where as lazy old me just turned up, tried to remember the distant memory of labour from placement and just go with the flow...
No one was any the wiser!
That my friends is what I would call that a success!
Thursday, 15 March 2012
Dear Room
Dear Room,
I'm very sorry for the neglect that you have had to suffer in the last few months...The thing is I'm a busy lady now and it's all for a very good reason. This weekend I promise I'll tidy up :)
Much love Amy :)
Moving on- Diet going well another 2lb lost, I also went swimming today and really enjoyed it, definitely going to get out there and do it more often.Plus it's a nice excuse to stare at all the near naked attractive men by the pool!
Essay looking better, DOS appointment made for tomorrow and then all day to do it :)
Going home tomorrow so Ginger puss I'll be ready for a big cuddle :) I'm actually very excited about going home and seeing people from work, just to see what everyone else is doing really.
Much love Amy :)
Moving on- Diet going well another 2lb lost, I also went swimming today and really enjoyed it, definitely going to get out there and do it more often.
Essay looking better, DOS appointment made for tomorrow and then all day to do it :)
Going home tomorrow so Ginger puss I'll be ready for a big cuddle :) I'm actually very excited about going home and seeing people from work, just to see what everyone else is doing really.
Friday, 9 March 2012
A Little Bit of Happy
So Tonight I needed cheering up after essay issues,
My wonderful flatmat Alice therefore showed me this wonderful video that made me much happier :
Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '99: Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind side you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
After this I feel much better Thank You Alice :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI
My wonderful flatmat Alice therefore showed me this wonderful video that made me much happier :
Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '99: Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.
Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blind side you at 4 PM on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone.
Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.
Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.
Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.
Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.
Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.
Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.
Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
After this I feel much better Thank You Alice :)
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So here I am again, essay panic writing sets in. It seems when it comes to essays there is a block and I end up back to stressed, swearing and shouting at my computer. So when I sent off my essay to my AA the other week I prayed for just a little bit of compassion. I didn't get it. She tore the damn thing to shreds which I knew she would. So here I am again procrastinating and avoiding the unavoidable. Really I should be productive, Proactive and strive to improve this shitty piece of work but at the moment I'd rather die than try and read it again. Safe to say an emergency meeting with DOS to sort it out is needed.
Placement is over now and that means that everything for placement is wrapped up and passed, one thing crossed off my to do list at least.
Going home next weekend to harass the Ginger puss and family, they've probably forgotten who I am by now, Not a single phone call from home for 2 months...Terrible!
Still I'm sure if my Ginger puss could talk he'd call me, I don't get excited about going home until it's actually been decided for definite, So not to excited about that :) It also turns out that March is an expensive time due to 1.Sisters birthday 2.Mothers Day 3. Nan's birthday and 4. Grandads birthday.
On the plus Side I lost 2lb this week, Not much but a start...Fatty will slim down (eventually!).
Placement is over now and that means that everything for placement is wrapped up and passed, one thing crossed off my to do list at least.
Going home next weekend to harass the Ginger puss and family, they've probably forgotten who I am by now, Not a single phone call from home for 2 months...Terrible!
Still I'm sure if my Ginger puss could talk he'd call me, I don't get excited about going home until it's actually been decided for definite, So not to excited about that :) It also turns out that March is an expensive time due to 1.Sisters birthday 2.Mothers Day 3. Nan's birthday and 4. Grandads birthday.
On the plus Side I lost 2lb this week, Not much but a start...Fatty will slim down (eventually!).
Sunday, 4 March 2012
Feeling Lazy
As you can tell from my 1 a week blog, I'm feeling a bit lazy. To be honest I didn't do a single thing this weekend apart from sleep, I have a night shift tonight which is why I feel it's justified but never the less I'm still feeling rather lazy. I'm also on day 3 of my diet today because I'm a fatty who has an uncontrollable eating habit when I'm on placement so I'm trying my best to eat healthily, I swear if i see another piece of fruit or vegetable I may hurl. On this evenings menu was green beans, peppers, broccoli, carrots, low fat cream cheese with chive and 100g of chips. For anyone who's ever measured a 100g of chips you will know how small that is. Safe to say I was less then impressed, I've eaten more fruit and veg in the last 3 days than I have eaten in my entire life. Anyway I finished my last shift with my mentor on Friday but on Thursday I had the nicest home birth so far, lovely girl, lovely family and just generally a very good vibe. It was her first baby and so it's unusual for a primip (First time mum) to go for a home birth. However, she behaved nothing like a first time mum, she was calm and relaxed and just got on with it. Normally with primps as soon as there in the first stage all hell breaks loose and I want to stand in the corner and pretend I'm invisible. at this home birth is was a completely different story. The lady was so relaxed though and she had the pool set up in her front room with the light streaming down through the windows it was, just a very chilled and very nice enviorment. I definitely did a few page reflection for that one and it was nice to see how my mentor dealt with ladies in labour. I can definitely see drastically different ways of practising when it comes to labour and it was just nice to see another way to guide women. Even though she didn't need any guidance really, she was quite happy to just do the whole thing in her own time :) But anyway the night shift is calling and I'm going to need to do something to wake myself up :) Nightt xx
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Recharge
Turns out all I needed was a three day weekend to finish my essay and become addicted to Grey's anatomy.
Things are looking good, it's amazing what you can do when your brain has a full 12 hours of sleep :) Still lots of work to do on the essay but the first draft is done and that about 75% of the effort I think. Plus a few hours on manual handling tomorrow and so tomorrow afternoon I have time to work on my portfolio and evidence for placement outcomes. The to do list is looking skinny and so I've resorted to looking for things to do. Obviously my brain just needed to recharge :)
Placement isn't going badly either, I am getting to the point where I'm good at my outcomes now, working with different midwives often throws me off balance a bit because you get used to doing it one way and then you spend the day with someone else and suddenly every things changed. The underpinning knowledge and physiology is the same but how it's translated to women depends on time and the midwife, Acting is definitely what it feels like as a student, your always on your toes ready for a question...I often turn red and pretend I'm a retard that knows nothing. Which in some instances now is not the case. So, some of it's going in.
It's easy to look at this massive journey I have in front of me and feel disheartened about how much there is still to learn. However, one new thing learnt each day however small is something and I cling onto such as how the spell the bloody word "eczema" it took me weeks to learn to spell that one word correctly or to know the correct work for excessive vomiting during pregnancy (Hyperemesis Gravidarum). I have to work to remember, so often when I get home at the end of the day my brain is almost full but I try so that the next time I'm quizzed about it I know. sometimes I remember sometimes I don't it's a bit hit and miss at the minute but I'm getting there. I just have to keep reminding myself that all the little things I remember are just pieces to the puzzle. I have a few but nowhere near enough to put it together yet. I'm still at the sorting stage of a 3 year jigsaw puzzle.
Things are looking good, it's amazing what you can do when your brain has a full 12 hours of sleep :) Still lots of work to do on the essay but the first draft is done and that about 75% of the effort I think. Plus a few hours on manual handling tomorrow and so tomorrow afternoon I have time to work on my portfolio and evidence for placement outcomes. The to do list is looking skinny and so I've resorted to looking for things to do. Obviously my brain just needed to recharge :)
Placement isn't going badly either, I am getting to the point where I'm good at my outcomes now, working with different midwives often throws me off balance a bit because you get used to doing it one way and then you spend the day with someone else and suddenly every things changed. The underpinning knowledge and physiology is the same but how it's translated to women depends on time and the midwife, Acting is definitely what it feels like as a student, your always on your toes ready for a question...I often turn red and pretend I'm a retard that knows nothing. Which in some instances now is not the case. So, some of it's going in.
It's easy to look at this massive journey I have in front of me and feel disheartened about how much there is still to learn. However, one new thing learnt each day however small is something and I cling onto such as how the spell the bloody word "eczema" it took me weeks to learn to spell that one word correctly or to know the correct work for excessive vomiting during pregnancy (Hyperemesis Gravidarum). I have to work to remember, so often when I get home at the end of the day my brain is almost full but I try so that the next time I'm quizzed about it I know. sometimes I remember sometimes I don't it's a bit hit and miss at the minute but I'm getting there. I just have to keep reminding myself that all the little things I remember are just pieces to the puzzle. I have a few but nowhere near enough to put it together yet. I'm still at the sorting stage of a 3 year jigsaw puzzle.
Friday, 24 February 2012
A busy week
Lacking in the energy for blog writing at the minute...
Placements hard and hours are long so most nights I curl up in bed and I'm asleep by about 9:30.
I have a three day weekend so I'm planning to nearly finish my essay by the end of next week and then live at the dean of students while I try and work out the glitches in it.
I also have uni on Monday for manual handling which means I get another lie in... Amazing! :)
Placements hard and hours are long so most nights I curl up in bed and I'm asleep by about 9:30.
I have a three day weekend so I'm planning to nearly finish my essay by the end of next week and then live at the dean of students while I try and work out the glitches in it.
I also have uni on Monday for manual handling which means I get another lie in... Amazing! :)
Friday, 17 February 2012
No Rest For the Wicked...Or For Student Midwives
Being woken up at seven in the morning on a Friday is never fun...
That's unless your called to a home birth :) Lovely birth and fairly quick, it was nice to see a normal-ish birth. However, when I go to a home birth I had no idea what to expect, so when I got to the house it wasn't what I'd expected. Messy and busy. The night shift were still there and handing over, they had their students with them and then the new midwives coming and me in a small one bedroom house. Safe to say it was a bit hectic but from what I can work out home births normally are... Anyway it took a while but when things finally got going everything was quite quick. Nice normal-ish birth so it was nice however the aftermath of missing a clinic and some visits was not fun so we spent the whole day trying to catch up and go and see the most important ladies. Safe to say my brain in now like mush and I would be no good at anything at the minute. All I can say is TGIF!!!
Weekends are never quiet though and I'm hoping to complete essay paragraph 2. write 2 reflections, neaten up and proof read some work, sort out some forms, write in my green and blue book and do some washing. No rest for the wicked and student midwives I'm afraid
That's unless your called to a home birth :) Lovely birth and fairly quick, it was nice to see a normal-ish birth. However, when I go to a home birth I had no idea what to expect, so when I got to the house it wasn't what I'd expected. Messy and busy. The night shift were still there and handing over, they had their students with them and then the new midwives coming and me in a small one bedroom house. Safe to say it was a bit hectic but from what I can work out home births normally are... Anyway it took a while but when things finally got going everything was quite quick. Nice normal-ish birth so it was nice however the aftermath of missing a clinic and some visits was not fun so we spent the whole day trying to catch up and go and see the most important ladies. Safe to say my brain in now like mush and I would be no good at anything at the minute. All I can say is TGIF!!!
Weekends are never quiet though and I'm hoping to complete essay paragraph 2. write 2 reflections, neaten up and proof read some work, sort out some forms, write in my green and blue book and do some washing. No rest for the wicked and student midwives I'm afraid
Tuesday, 14 February 2012
Counting
So, Struggling at the minute because my mentor has decided I should do a lot more and it turns out that I'm actually retarded. Would quite like to give up and go back to a nice easy 9-5, because at least then when I finish work it stays at work. Instead of doing 8-5 midwifery then coming home and reading about midwifery. Anyway otherwise everything is good, essay is coming a long nicely and managing the to do list well, so other wise no concerns and can't wait until the next 3 weeks are up :)
Sunday, 12 February 2012
Saturday, 11 February 2012
Being productive
I wrote a whole 600 word paragraph today, (more than I've done in the past month) and I'm feeling pretty good about it, also decided to try and do two weeks worth of washing in one go today...That ended badly with my bag slitting while walking back and me scrambling to pick it all up again. Serves me Right I suppose. only 4 weeks left of placement, this is a good thing as my mentor is slightly crazy due to her pregnantness and therefore at times a tad grumpy.
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Note to self must learn how to spell eczema because every time I do a booking interview i spell it wrong and look like a complete idiot. My mentor is quite quickly now pushing me to do things, I enjoyed it when I could sit in the corner, smile and think about whats for dinner. Where as now I actually have to use my brain, write, give advice and generally avoid looking like I'm panicking when I'm asked a question. I've decided that midwifery is acting. With every new lady that walks in with a baby you must act like it's the most exciting thing in the world. Which it is, for the first 1000 times you do it. After that every baby starts to look the same and you end up repeating the same advice you've already given about 50 times before. Don't get me wrong I enjoy it but it gets a bit repetitive at times. Bring on labour ward placement in the summer, I'm already getting excited for that now, but first back to the job in hand. Writing this essay...
Wednesday, 8 February 2012
Mid week already!
So Wednesday normally means a full booking clinic, so when I found out we only had 3 this afternoon I was reasonably pleased. I'm getting fairly good at them now and after the initial wobble during the first week I've managed to convince myself that I'm not too terrible at them, I'm taking longer but only because I'm talking more and it's nice to now be able to answer a few questions that I'm asked.
Yesterday was also a good day as I was able to give good breastfeeding support by myself with out much of my mentors help- I achieved this as an outcome so even more of a bonus confidence builder...
It's nice to feel like I'm slightly better at it but I'm definitely not learning a fast.
I must stop napping when I get home because then I don't sleep well at night, I tried to do a bit of work last night, however after 5 minutes had given up and decided Grey's Anatomy was much more exciting and fell asleep, only to be woken up by noisy flat mates at 11'o'clock, as you can imagine I sat and swore to myself in my room.
Good news on the essay front too! My plan was marked and my AA didn't seem all that concerned so I'm guessing that's a good thing... Onwards and upwards
Awaiting the imminent comedown soon.
Yesterday was also a good day as I was able to give good breastfeeding support by myself with out much of my mentors help- I achieved this as an outcome so even more of a bonus confidence builder...
It's nice to feel like I'm slightly better at it but I'm definitely not learning a fast.
I must stop napping when I get home because then I don't sleep well at night, I tried to do a bit of work last night, however after 5 minutes had given up and decided Grey's Anatomy was much more exciting and fell asleep, only to be woken up by noisy flat mates at 11'o'clock, as you can imagine I sat and swore to myself in my room.
Good news on the essay front too! My plan was marked and my AA didn't seem all that concerned so I'm guessing that's a good thing... Onwards and upwards
Awaiting the imminent comedown soon.
Monday, 6 February 2012
Student Finance
Apparently it's that time of year again to sit around and spend hours calling random people and sitting on hold for hours. Fun. I remember how much of a pain in the ass this was this time last year. At this moment in time it is the last thing I'm worrying about.
Starting to miss my ginger puss now :( I'm sure he's missing me lots too...
5 weeks left of placement and I can't wait until it's over, I'm bored of being a grumpy, tired recluse who rarely leaves her room.
I worked with a different mentor on Friday and she was pretty good, I refreshed my memory a fair bit which is a bonus and it was nice to get a different perspective from someone different. I should really be back into the swing of things by now, but I would be lying if I said I was.
On the up side, I managed to sort out 2 posters- one on the active and physiological third stage of labour and the other on Vitamin K for babies. My to do list is looking slightly shorter, however I haven’t written a reflection since I started placement :-S EKK My bad!
Friday, 3 February 2012
Wednesday, 1 February 2012
One step forward and two steps back
At the minute everyday I manage to get through is a bonus, came home a 5pm today got into bed and slept until 8pm for a little nap, I HATE GETTING UP EARLY!! At the moment I do feel like I'm failing and I'm finding it difficult to get back on my feet every time I do something wrong, I managed to do 4 booking interviews to day with a little help from my midwife and although that's good, it still isn't as good as I was last time and I've forgotten a lot of what I knew before. I'm praying for a good day because I'm getting pretty bored of feeling crappy at the end of the day and then having to come home and do masses of reading...
HMM Think positive thoughts!!!
HMM Think positive thoughts!!!
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
Tired
Two days into placement and I want to quit, that's not a good sign.
If I wasn't so tired I would be okay but at the moment it's really difficult, I've forgotten a lot of what I learnt before in placement and now I'm having to play catch up on top of my essay, EBL, Parent craft presentation and read about a million guidelines, my mentor is pushing me fairly hard and I feel pretty shitty about it all really.
Never mind maybe another early night may make it all better...
If I wasn't so tired I would be okay but at the moment it's really difficult, I've forgotten a lot of what I learnt before in placement and now I'm having to play catch up on top of my essay, EBL, Parent craft presentation and read about a million guidelines, my mentor is pushing me fairly hard and I feel pretty shitty about it all really.
Never mind maybe another early night may make it all better...
Friday, 27 January 2012
Bring it on
Starting to feel slightly Schizophrenic, one day
I'm feeling down, useless and generally in a foul moods and others when I'm
feeling positive and feel like I'm really getting somewhere. I feel sorry for
the people who have to live with me. Today was a good day, the presentation
went well and all of us worked really well together even though it was all
thrown together at last minute.
The time at Uni is over for now and now for the real hard work, Bring it on, I'm ready for 6 weeks of early mornings, late nights and very restricted diet of Greg's for breakfast, Nothing for lunch and then Maccy D's for dinner.
Time to put into practise everything I've learnt at Uni and to get out there and learn some more!
Even though everyday has its ups and downs being a student midwife is truly amazing and I know I'm lucky to be in this position!
The time at Uni is over for now and now for the real hard work, Bring it on, I'm ready for 6 weeks of early mornings, late nights and very restricted diet of Greg's for breakfast, Nothing for lunch and then Maccy D's for dinner.
Time to put into practise everything I've learnt at Uni and to get out there and learn some more!
Even though everyday has its ups and downs being a student midwife is truly amazing and I know I'm lucky to be in this position!
Thursday, 26 January 2012
Essay #2
Here I go again, only this time I won't get stressed about it, I've done it once I can do it again. Introduction in progress and feeling fairly positive about it, I've got the whole day to work on it so I'm not going to rush and it's not due in until the 27th of March so at the moment I figured any progress is good. :) Tomorrow is EBL presentation day and then next week it's back to early starts and placement begins all over again...
I'm getting excited again to start to put the things I've learnt into practise :)
:)
Wednesday, 25 January 2012
I must stop complaining
I must stop being so miserable, I'm so tired at the moment and with placement coming up that's not the best position to be in.
However I am determined to turn over a new leaf and go a whole week without moaning. My EBL group are doing our presentation on Friday so that will be one less thing to worry about, one down, one to go and one essay then that's it for term 2.
Kristie has got a list of reasons to be happy, what a brilliant idea! So I am currently working on my own for those regular down days that you get while on placement. I must say I'm 4 weeks in and I haven't had a proper midwife crisis and broken down in fits of tears in front of the cohort so I class that as a massive success!
However I am determined to turn over a new leaf and go a whole week without moaning. My EBL group are doing our presentation on Friday so that will be one less thing to worry about, one down, one to go and one essay then that's it for term 2.
Kristie has got a list of reasons to be happy, what a brilliant idea! So I am currently working on my own for those regular down days that you get while on placement. I must say I'm 4 weeks in and I haven't had a proper midwife crisis and broken down in fits of tears in front of the cohort so I class that as a massive success!
Tuesday, 24 January 2012
Pass!
Thank you lord
A 56% was enough to get me what I needed and I can honestly say even though I wasn't top of the class I'm so pleased. A cock up with my placement signatures means that my grade for placement has been capped at 40% even though I was looking at a pass of around 70% I'm a bit gutted but relieved that it was the placement booklet that was capped and not the essay.
I have to say this midwifery roller coaster is getting significantly harder. I knew I would eventually come down after feeling so fantastic week last week.
Placement starts next week and a certain amount of nerves are getting in the way of me just going with the flow. I'm just trying to remember everything I learnt from last placement and to build on it.
Another thing that's really annoying the hell out of me is my sleep deprivation, I'd love to get into bed and switch off but alas there I am at three in the morning wondering whether it's the pulmonary trunk connecting to the Dutus Arterious and then aorta or is it the other way round? I've tried everything, counting sheep, getting up and wondering round but nothing seems to work, so I just lay there with a constant buzz of activity in my already full brain.
If I don't get some sleep soon I may go a little bit crazier and truly develop the brain of a Madwife. Yes I say Madwife and no it is not a spelling mistake. It’s what other health care professionals call us because believe it or not, you have to be slightly mental to become a midwife. In which case it looks like I'm well on my way...
Thursday, 19 January 2012
Alice's Interpretation of flat 1
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Really?
So I was sat in lectures today and it hit me...
I actually knew what the women stood at the front was talking about and from that moment on I was in a state of shock because for the past 5 months I've just sat at the back of the class normally praying that no one asked me any questions. Then BAM like a light bulb had flicked on and suddenly my brain had an idea about what was going on. I can feel me learning now and it's weird because i spent all of the first term in a blind panic and now it's just amazing when someone asks me something or the lecturer asks us to do some research I can go away, do it and sort of get it right.
AMAZING
Like I said whenever I start to get a bit comfortable something is just around the corner to knock me right back down again and with the ugly essay just around the corner I can only think the worst...
Please, Please, Please let me get a pass because if I don't the whole process of build myself up again will have to start again...
I actually knew what the women stood at the front was talking about and from that moment on I was in a state of shock because for the past 5 months I've just sat at the back of the class normally praying that no one asked me any questions. Then BAM like a light bulb had flicked on and suddenly my brain had an idea about what was going on. I can feel me learning now and it's weird because i spent all of the first term in a blind panic and now it's just amazing when someone asks me something or the lecturer asks us to do some research I can go away, do it and sort of get it right.
AMAZING
Like I said whenever I start to get a bit comfortable something is just around the corner to knock me right back down again and with the ugly essay just around the corner I can only think the worst...
Please, Please, Please let me get a pass because if I don't the whole process of build myself up again will have to start again...
Wednesday, 18 January 2012
Plan
I planned to do something today and it ended up being a fairly beneficial
day as far as work goes. Managed to finish my EBL script and diagrams while
eating pizza and faffing about with the other student midwives, I’ve discovered
I'm a very social worker. I enjoy noise and bustle around me while I work.
Chatter seems to help and it turns out sitting in a room with 6 other student
midwives produces a large amount of chatter. I've also managed to finish the
plan for my next essay so all together I'm feeling fairy proud of myself which
means that something is right around the corner to bring back down to earth
with a rather hard thud.
That rather large thud could come when I get the results for my essay on Monday, the fact I stressed about it, cried over it and put a lot of hard work into it means that I have a lot of emotional baggage attached to a pass or a fail. Just thinking about it puts a knot in my stomach so please everyone out there have your fingers crossed because I will have mine crossed.
Moving on, it seems that the whole cohort is flagging at the minute and the lecturer isn't as good as the one we had last term. The way she teaches is slightly different and unnerving because we are pretty much in charge of what we learn and how we learn. In one way that’s great and it turns out I’m quite creative when it comes to learning new things, I'm always finding new and different ways of learning. I can feel myself changing and becoming more in control of how I learn, wanting to learn is definitely a very different feeling rather than just being given information and forgetting about it almost instantly. Now I actually want to know more, it amazes me since I’ve never really been interested in anything from a school perspective. It's definitely very new to myself and something that takes some getting used to I feel I am learning but I often doubt the information that I use. The adult in me is telling me that this is how it should be done but the fresh from school teenager is running scared at the fact I have to do it all on my own. Thankfully many others on the course feel the same and we act as a very strong support group for each other. Us midwives may be a bit on the weird side but only because we are probably some of the most passionate people you’ll ever meet.
That rather large thud could come when I get the results for my essay on Monday, the fact I stressed about it, cried over it and put a lot of hard work into it means that I have a lot of emotional baggage attached to a pass or a fail. Just thinking about it puts a knot in my stomach so please everyone out there have your fingers crossed because I will have mine crossed.
Moving on, it seems that the whole cohort is flagging at the minute and the lecturer isn't as good as the one we had last term. The way she teaches is slightly different and unnerving because we are pretty much in charge of what we learn and how we learn. In one way that’s great and it turns out I’m quite creative when it comes to learning new things, I'm always finding new and different ways of learning. I can feel myself changing and becoming more in control of how I learn, wanting to learn is definitely a very different feeling rather than just being given information and forgetting about it almost instantly. Now I actually want to know more, it amazes me since I’ve never really been interested in anything from a school perspective. It's definitely very new to myself and something that takes some getting used to I feel I am learning but I often doubt the information that I use. The adult in me is telling me that this is how it should be done but the fresh from school teenager is running scared at the fact I have to do it all on my own. Thankfully many others on the course feel the same and we act as a very strong support group for each other. Us midwives may be a bit on the weird side but only because we are probably some of the most passionate people you’ll ever meet.
Midwifery isn't just a career it's a
way of life.
Tuesday, 17 January 2012
The student bible...Some of which are very true!
So what if Jesus turned water into wine...I turned a whole student loan into Vodka once. Your move Jesus...
1)Thou must follow the student bible
2)Thou must get absolutely hammered in Fresher’s week
3)Thou must participate and excel in drinking games
4)Thou must be honest when playing I have never
5)Thou must be extremely hungover for the whole of introduction week
6)Thou must not cook thy own food
7)Thou must avoid green food at any extent
8)Thou must live off take aways, beans, pasta and vitamin tablets
9)Thou must show no shame when going in to uni in your pyjamas
10)Thou must bring several trophies back from a night out, cones, chairs, tables, posters and a member of the opposite sex
11)Thou must not attend over 50% of lectures throughout the year as they are all online
12)Thou must take it in turns to carry each other home
13)Thou must be over friendly in Freshers week and then realise that you don’t even like half the people the next week….
14)Thou must have the biggest sound system in the block
15)Thou must wake up and start drinking the following day
16)Thou must excel at being a lad/ladette
17)Thou must NEVER shy away from a forfeit
18)Thou must streak on thy Varsity matches
19)Thou must take thy clothes off at any given opportunity
20)Thou must excel at Fifa
21)Thou must do the unusual on a night out
22)Thou must be the maddest bass in the club to show you are a true student
23)Thou shalt make a paper airplane out of any papers given to thou by lecturers
24)Thou shalt always abide by the laws of spillage is lickage
25)Thou shalt agree that if thou rememberest the night before, thou wasn't drunk enough
26)Thou shall complete thy work at the very last minute with references from Google because drinking should be thines top priority and work leaves no time for it.
27)Thou shalt always drink some alcoholic beverage (preferably a homemade concoction of lager, vodka and red bull) in lectures and seminars as a form of pre drinking. No exceptions even if you are (for some reason) in a morning lecture.
29)Thou must use words such as epic, lad and other student lingo
30)Thou shalt place bros before hoes and Lays before A's at all times.
32)Purchase Asda's own kentucky Brand Whiskey and own brand coca-cola to remind you that you once drank Jack Daniels and Coke.
33)Thou shall produce student cards in every possible situation to ensure maximum discount
34)Thou shall always obey the rules of shotgun, regardless of current situation.
35)Thou shalt only drink twice a year; when tis thine birthday and when tis not
36)Thou shall never under any circumstances attend lectures before 11am or after 12 noon.
37)Thou shalt use being drunk as an excuse for outrageous behavior.
38)Thou shall go out with a tenner and still wake up the next morning with no recollection of the night before
39)Thou shall not go to America but must be in some states
40)Thou shalt never be the designated driver
41)Thou shall obey the rule of quoting at least one Anchorman catchphrase with every drink poured.
42)Thou shall go out with £10 and awake the next morn with £41.25 with no recollection of how, why, where or what
“Mm, I love scotch. I love scotch. Scotchy, scotch, scotch. Here it goes down. Down into my belly. Mm-mm-mm.”
43)Thou shall never refuse the dirty pint
44)Thou must refer to a shocking morning, afternoon and evening as a 'shorning', 'shafternoon' and a 'shevening'
45)Thou shall wear thy wellies in freshers week as thou will be knee deep in clunge.
46)Thou shall never pre drink, as thou should have never stopped drinking.
47)Thou shall always be up for jäger bombs
48)Thou must never decline a challenge once the words 'man up' hath been said
49)Thou shall never use the term " the walk of shame" but instead, "the stride of pride"
50)Thou shall never turn down any form of alcohol. Be it exam night or not.
52)Thou shall flirt shamelessly for a double vodka red bull
53)Thou shall NEVER refer to a fellow drinker as "drunk" or "wasted" as they have merely begun the absorption of critical banter fuel
54)Thou shall always refer to Primark as Primani to show that you appreciate student fashion
55)Thy shall NEVER throw away a Pot Noodle once it is done, for it is then, a cup
56)Thou must remember, if it seems like a terrible idea it must be done
57)Thou must take a break after writing the title of the assignment
58)Thou shalt always remember that alcohol left by someone else in thy house becomes thine own
59)Thou shalt not merely kiss and tell, but shall shag and shout.
60)Thou shalt practice the art of minesweeping when funds are low, and continue when funds are not low as practice for low fund times.
61)Thou shall always fulfill their moral duty and save the Queen whenever the penny is dropped
62)Thou shall partake in some form of 'man points' system
63)Thou shall only go out drinking on a weekday student night when in Preston, Manchester, or Liverpool for it is to dangerous and expensive on a Saturday.
64)Thou shalt get to uni and immediately open the vodka
65)Thou shalt count a bottle of cider as one of your five a day
66)Thou shalt not stop the party till the police walk in. Then thou shalt invite them to join in
67)Thou shalt walk home, rather than pay for taxi as this be waste of beer money
68)Thou shall spend half your loan on the first day on clothes and alcohol and definitely NOT on equipment for uni.
69)Thou shalt always see a passed out person as an object to be decorated
70)Thou shalt claim that thy mother and thy father "ruined my life" yet shalt rely on them for money, as thou has no job and is "too good" for thy dole.
71)Thou shall only attend lectures 20 minutes late and upon refusal of entry due to this lateness thou must remind the lecturer who is paying for who to be there.
72)Thou shall sneak vodka into clubs and add this holy spirit to the mixer which you purchase
73)Thou shall wear a hat in lectures when still drunk, because hats disguise all
74)Thou shall be a fearless wingman and push thine friend into the chick he likes while you take one for the team and keep her friend "preoccupied"
75)Thou glass is never half empty. If it is, thou should learn to take shots properly
76)Thou shalt never have a hangover for this means that drinking has stopped
77)Thou must save thy taxi money for more alcohol and take the ambulance home
78)Thou shalt erect a "Chunder Chart" and place it on thy wall in thy kitchen as if it were the mona lisa
79)Thou shall shout "bogey" in lecture and that bogey will be received by a louder "bogey", to which you will deploy a louder "bogey" this will continue until one or more boogers are expelled from the lecture hall at which point remaining boogers will chant "bogey, bogey" in protest for fellow boogers to be re-instated to their seats.
80)Thou shalt always remember that blood fucks up thy alcohol system.
81)Thou shall take advantage of every student discount going to allow for more spending on booze.
82)Thou shalt not commit sobriety
83)Thou shall always find amusement in cheering, applauding (and thus confusing) complete strangers for simply walking into a room or onto a bus
84)Whenst thou hearest 'Party Rock Anthem' thou must stoppeth what (or whom) thou is doing instantaneously... and shuffle.
85)Thou shall place unbearable peer pressure on those who fail to live in accordance with student bible! to show a duty of care
86)Thou shalt pay homage to the 2nd, 3rd and 4th year students, for the higher the year, the greater their experience of the university religion...and thou ist but a lowly fresher.
87)Thou shalt ask "do you do student discount" before every single purchase, even if its primark and thou already knows the answer
88)Thou see Orange Cone,Thou take it
89)And on the 3rd day, God created 'Student Discount' so that man could have a free cheeseburger with his Big Mac meal.
90)Thou shalt have no shame in finishing off half drunk beverages regardless of who they may belong too
91)Thou must eat a bonsai tree, to immediately become fun and interesting.
92)Thou must not give blood as thy blood is worth at least £40 worth of alcohol
93)Thou shalt always choose thines favourite bar based on the price of Jagerbombs and not on the quality of the establishment.
94)Thou must always perform a "Chunder Dragon" and shout "Chunnnndaaaa draaagoooon" whilst throwing up.
Chunder Dragon: While in the process of projectile chundering due to excessive alcohol consumption, flapping your arms up and down so that you look like a dragon.
The Student Prayer
Our Students in thy Union,
hallowed be your alcohol.
Your hangover to come,
your heads will be done,
on student discounts as it is in Costco.
Give us this day without a hangover,
Mum and Dad forgive us for our student debts,
as we also have forgiven our drunk friends.
And lead us not into a full time job,
but deliver us from the Job Centre."
1)Thou must follow the student bible
2)Thou must get absolutely hammered in Fresher’s week
3)Thou must participate and excel in drinking games
4)Thou must be honest when playing I have never
5)Thou must be extremely hungover for the whole of introduction week
6)Thou must not cook thy own food
7)Thou must avoid green food at any extent
8)Thou must live off take aways, beans, pasta and vitamin tablets
9)Thou must show no shame when going in to uni in your pyjamas
10)Thou must bring several trophies back from a night out, cones, chairs, tables, posters and a member of the opposite sex
11)Thou must not attend over 50% of lectures throughout the year as they are all online
12)Thou must take it in turns to carry each other home
13)Thou must be over friendly in Freshers week and then realise that you don’t even like half the people the next week….
14)Thou must have the biggest sound system in the block
15)Thou must wake up and start drinking the following day
16)Thou must excel at being a lad/ladette
17)Thou must NEVER shy away from a forfeit
18)Thou must streak on thy Varsity matches
19)Thou must take thy clothes off at any given opportunity
20)Thou must excel at Fifa
21)Thou must do the unusual on a night out
22)Thou must be the maddest bass in the club to show you are a true student
23)Thou shalt make a paper airplane out of any papers given to thou by lecturers
24)Thou shalt always abide by the laws of spillage is lickage
25)Thou shalt agree that if thou rememberest the night before, thou wasn't drunk enough
26)Thou shall complete thy work at the very last minute with references from Google because drinking should be thines top priority and work leaves no time for it.
27)Thou shalt always drink some alcoholic beverage (preferably a homemade concoction of lager, vodka and red bull) in lectures and seminars as a form of pre drinking. No exceptions even if you are (for some reason) in a morning lecture.
29)Thou must use words such as epic, lad and other student lingo
30)Thou shalt place bros before hoes and Lays before A's at all times.
32)Purchase Asda's own kentucky Brand Whiskey and own brand coca-cola to remind you that you once drank Jack Daniels and Coke.
33)Thou shall produce student cards in every possible situation to ensure maximum discount
34)Thou shall always obey the rules of shotgun, regardless of current situation.
35)Thou shalt only drink twice a year; when tis thine birthday and when tis not
36)Thou shall never under any circumstances attend lectures before 11am or after 12 noon.
37)Thou shalt use being drunk as an excuse for outrageous behavior.
38)Thou shall go out with a tenner and still wake up the next morning with no recollection of the night before
39)Thou shall not go to America but must be in some states
40)Thou shalt never be the designated driver
41)Thou shall obey the rule of quoting at least one Anchorman catchphrase with every drink poured.
42)Thou shall go out with £10 and awake the next morn with £41.25 with no recollection of how, why, where or what
“Mm, I love scotch. I love scotch. Scotchy, scotch, scotch. Here it goes down. Down into my belly. Mm-mm-mm.”
43)Thou shall never refuse the dirty pint
44)Thou must refer to a shocking morning, afternoon and evening as a 'shorning', 'shafternoon' and a 'shevening'
45)Thou shall wear thy wellies in freshers week as thou will be knee deep in clunge.
46)Thou shall never pre drink, as thou should have never stopped drinking.
47)Thou shall always be up for jäger bombs
48)Thou must never decline a challenge once the words 'man up' hath been said
49)Thou shall never use the term " the walk of shame" but instead, "the stride of pride"
50)Thou shall never turn down any form of alcohol. Be it exam night or not.
52)Thou shall flirt shamelessly for a double vodka red bull
53)Thou shall NEVER refer to a fellow drinker as "drunk" or "wasted" as they have merely begun the absorption of critical banter fuel
54)Thou shall always refer to Primark as Primani to show that you appreciate student fashion
55)Thy shall NEVER throw away a Pot Noodle once it is done, for it is then, a cup
56)Thou must remember, if it seems like a terrible idea it must be done
57)Thou must take a break after writing the title of the assignment
58)Thou shalt always remember that alcohol left by someone else in thy house becomes thine own
59)Thou shalt not merely kiss and tell, but shall shag and shout.
60)Thou shalt practice the art of minesweeping when funds are low, and continue when funds are not low as practice for low fund times.
61)Thou shall always fulfill their moral duty and save the Queen whenever the penny is dropped
62)Thou shall partake in some form of 'man points' system
63)Thou shall only go out drinking on a weekday student night when in Preston, Manchester, or Liverpool for it is to dangerous and expensive on a Saturday.
64)Thou shalt get to uni and immediately open the vodka
65)Thou shalt count a bottle of cider as one of your five a day
66)Thou shalt not stop the party till the police walk in. Then thou shalt invite them to join in
67)Thou shalt walk home, rather than pay for taxi as this be waste of beer money
68)Thou shall spend half your loan on the first day on clothes and alcohol and definitely NOT on equipment for uni.
69)Thou shalt always see a passed out person as an object to be decorated
70)Thou shalt claim that thy mother and thy father "ruined my life" yet shalt rely on them for money, as thou has no job and is "too good" for thy dole.
71)Thou shall only attend lectures 20 minutes late and upon refusal of entry due to this lateness thou must remind the lecturer who is paying for who to be there.
72)Thou shall sneak vodka into clubs and add this holy spirit to the mixer which you purchase
73)Thou shall wear a hat in lectures when still drunk, because hats disguise all
74)Thou shall be a fearless wingman and push thine friend into the chick he likes while you take one for the team and keep her friend "preoccupied"
75)Thou glass is never half empty. If it is, thou should learn to take shots properly
76)Thou shalt never have a hangover for this means that drinking has stopped
77)Thou must save thy taxi money for more alcohol and take the ambulance home
78)Thou shalt erect a "Chunder Chart" and place it on thy wall in thy kitchen as if it were the mona lisa
79)Thou shall shout "bogey" in lecture and that bogey will be received by a louder "bogey", to which you will deploy a louder "bogey" this will continue until one or more boogers are expelled from the lecture hall at which point remaining boogers will chant "bogey, bogey" in protest for fellow boogers to be re-instated to their seats.
80)Thou shalt always remember that blood fucks up thy alcohol system.
81)Thou shall take advantage of every student discount going to allow for more spending on booze.
82)Thou shalt not commit sobriety
83)Thou shall always find amusement in cheering, applauding (and thus confusing) complete strangers for simply walking into a room or onto a bus
84)Whenst thou hearest 'Party Rock Anthem' thou must stoppeth what (or whom) thou is doing instantaneously... and shuffle.
85)Thou shall place unbearable peer pressure on those who fail to live in accordance with student bible! to show a duty of care
86)Thou shalt pay homage to the 2nd, 3rd and 4th year students, for the higher the year, the greater their experience of the university religion...and thou ist but a lowly fresher.
87)Thou shalt ask "do you do student discount" before every single purchase, even if its primark and thou already knows the answer
88)Thou see Orange Cone,Thou take it
89)And on the 3rd day, God created 'Student Discount' so that man could have a free cheeseburger with his Big Mac meal.
90)Thou shalt have no shame in finishing off half drunk beverages regardless of who they may belong too
91)Thou must eat a bonsai tree, to immediately become fun and interesting.
92)Thou must not give blood as thy blood is worth at least £40 worth of alcohol
93)Thou shalt always choose thines favourite bar based on the price of Jagerbombs and not on the quality of the establishment.
94)Thou must always perform a "Chunder Dragon" and shout "Chunnnndaaaa draaagoooon" whilst throwing up.
Chunder Dragon: While in the process of projectile chundering due to excessive alcohol consumption, flapping your arms up and down so that you look like a dragon.
The Student Prayer
Our Students in thy Union,
hallowed be your alcohol.
Your hangover to come,
your heads will be done,
on student discounts as it is in Costco.
Give us this day without a hangover,
Mum and Dad forgive us for our student debts,
as we also have forgiven our drunk friends.
And lead us not into a full time job,
but deliver us from the Job Centre."
Monday, 16 January 2012
I think I get it.
So after my weekend of doing absolutely nothing I was able to finish early and try and catch up on a bit of work that I had neglected. Turns out it's been quite productive, I've managed to finish off my A & P on the breast and also do some drug calculation work. Not bad for an afternoon, It's nice to be able to do something and actually know what I'm doing.
Before I get to excited though I need to work out a plan for this article review, however I'm in a good mood and feel like a challenge so who knows I may be able to get my head around it. I get my feedback for my previous essay sometime next week if not definitely the week after and the feeling of the dreaded F is starting to dawn on me, if i don't pass it first time then I will just be adding a rather large extra pressure on an already busy to-do list.
Only time will tell, lets just hope I pass first time because I may have a nervous breakdown if I don't...
Before I get to excited though I need to work out a plan for this article review, however I'm in a good mood and feel like a challenge so who knows I may be able to get my head around it. I get my feedback for my previous essay sometime next week if not definitely the week after and the feeling of the dreaded F is starting to dawn on me, if i don't pass it first time then I will just be adding a rather large extra pressure on an already busy to-do list.
Only time will tell, lets just hope I pass first time because I may have a nervous breakdown if I don't...
Thursday, 12 January 2012
Back home again
Lots of things to do, little time to do it in... Placement is just around the corner and I must admit I'm a tad nervous about going back into placement, suddenly we're expected to know things and carry out checks. I have a whole book of outcomes and they're all scary ones. I'm happy that I'll be out of the class room though because it's boring me to death and I'm not learning anything at all. Lectures have become pretty much led by ourselves because our lecturer believes that we should really teach ourselves.
I think I've managed to get my head around fetal circulation and I'm almost able to remember it now which is always nice after trying to learn and remember it for about a week. I already feel like I need a rest and the term hasn't really started yet. Still very depressing.
I think I've managed to get my head around fetal circulation and I'm almost able to remember it now which is always nice after trying to learn and remember it for about a week. I already feel like I need a rest and the term hasn't really started yet. Still very depressing.
Monday, 9 January 2012
Just try not to panic
So the work load is insane again and there is lots of things that need to be done and sorted before I go out on placement.
Highest on my list of worries at the moment is an article review. So far we've had no help and I pretty much have no clue about how to write one... The joy!
Plus trying to get my head around fetal circulation and attempting 2 EBL presentation. I'm afraid it's back to the sleepless nights of worry. Who says being a student midwife isn't fun hey!
Plus trying to get my head around fetal circulation and attempting 2 EBL presentation. I'm afraid it's back to the sleepless nights of worry. Who says being a student midwife isn't fun hey!
Saw a funny picture today and thought I would share it with you all...
LOL
Sunday, 8 January 2012
One week down
There goes another week, Christmas feels like it never happened and the work load went from nothing to about 6 different things to be looking at and working on. The healthy student diet has returned and I'm now on my third go at a Chinese take away.
The house business is nearly all sorted now and it's nice to tick that off my check list early. Not much to write about really, everything Ive been doing is pretty much self taught and it's actually becoming a bit easier. lectures mostly consist of Enquiry based learning which is basically where they tell us to buggar off and do it ourselves.
Good new though, I passed the poster presentation last term. I still haven't heard anything about my written piece of work, which is the bit I'm most worried about. Otherwise things are good and just a little bit stressful.
The house business is nearly all sorted now and it's nice to tick that off my check list early. Not much to write about really, everything Ive been doing is pretty much self taught and it's actually becoming a bit easier. lectures mostly consist of Enquiry based learning which is basically where they tell us to buggar off and do it ourselves.
Good new though, I passed the poster presentation last term. I still haven't heard anything about my written piece of work, which is the bit I'm most worried about. Otherwise things are good and just a little bit stressful.
:)
Thursday, 5 January 2012
House anyone?
So we've found a house for ourselves next year and suddenly a dark cloud has been lifted. The place is really nice, on a bus route and fairly close to uni so no complaints. I'm sharing with 6 other people and we signed on the dotted line today! Lucky enough us medical students get a 2 week head start on the rest of uni to find the best accommodation because come the 16th it will be mental.
Another amazing thing happened today...
Yes, One born every minute returned and everything in the world stopped for an hour while i sat glued to my most favourite programme on earth and then it struck me.
In two years that will be me!!
What a strange thought.
Another amazing thing happened today...
Yes, One born every minute returned and everything in the world stopped for an hour while i sat glued to my most favourite programme on earth and then it struck me.
In two years that will be me!!
Tuesday, 3 January 2012
I'm Back and ready to go...To the pub!
Arrival back at uni was suprisingly nice, Seeing all my nurse/ ODP flatmates was definitely nice and as for you Alice...Were all truely jealous that you get a full month off! However, finding out that some of them had already started placement was a little bit funny (and mean).
I've come back to uni fairly fresh faced and with a mountain of food which should last me til christmas, so it's not all bad. I've got a house viewing tomorrow and lectures weren't too bad. So altogether it hasn't been a bad day really.
I've also now completed my wall masterpiece and all is well :)
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